One of the worst feelings I can experience is failure at following through. I don’t procrastinate. The feeling of having work to do that has yet to be completed is enough to ensure I work before I play.
I registered for Wildflower and Vineman before buying a bike. This was, in hindsight, a mistake. I had no experience riding a road bike and had no idea as to whether I’d enjoy it or what the learning curve would be.
I dread the bike. Profusely. When I know it’s bike day, I drag my feet out the door to go biking. I don’t enjoy it like I do swimming or running. Through my biking experience, I realize how much I truly enjoy other activities.
I haven’t put down enough miles to race Vineman in six weeks. Since Wildflower, I’ve biked a whopping zero times. If I were to jump into training for Vineman now, I would have to bend over backwards to make the mileage happen and potentially do too much too quickly. I’d rather be comfortably trained for my first half Ironman instead of fearful of low mileage and lack of training.
- Completing Wildflower as my first Olympic triathlon is nothing to scoff at. I’m happy that I emerged from that experience mostly unscathed (minus the worst sunburn ever) and more confident at triathlon racing and logistics.
- I’m happy that I’m making a decision on what I WANT to do versus what I think I SHOULD do.
- There will be more half Ironmans; I have plenty of time and opportunity to feel comfortable on the bike and ready to race 70.3. Jesse and I are eying Oceanside in March as a foggier, flatter alternative to Vineman.
While I hate admitting defeat, I haven’t really lost anything. I’m excited to be 100% focused on running and strength training for the San Francisco Marathon, and I’m looking into a sprint or Olympic triathlon in the fall. I’m excited to cheer Jesse on at finish line at Vineman this year and envision my own 70.3 accomplishment.